This quote from Elisabeth Elliot gets me every time:
“This year, let us dissolve all of our hopes into a single hope, to know Christ and be found in Him. May this be the year to desire a radically transformed, deeper, truer, knowing Christ as our All-Sufficient One.“
At times my heart feels as though it might burst. I am desperately looking for friends who are “on mission” with me. For friends that are tired of the trivial, tired of getting sucked into the mundanity of life, who are exhausted from running the approval race and keeping up with the Joneses. I catch glimpses of Him reflecting in the words of friends like Ann Voskamp, Sally Clarkson, my friends Tianna and Megan, and people I don’t know but wish I did like Elisabeth Elliot, Francis and Lisa Chan, and Amy Carmichael. I need people who are willing to point me back, over and over.
That together, we can have an
unquenchable thirst for the living God.
I feel that there are times when my heart catches a glimpse of what God is doing behind the scenes. I catch the warm waft of air that brushes past my face and whispers,”You have only just begun to know Me. Come, let me show you more.”
I want to be a wild alive chaser a woman deep in the throes of living an adventure with God….in the midst of the mundane.
I don’t mean doing BIG things for God, but rather being at home with God in each mundane moment of my life.
Whatever it takes. Going all in.
“If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10
And I’m tired of half way. You might think since I’m a missionary living in Africa that I have it all figured out. But going all in is not about vocation or location. It’s about a heart fully devoted.
And I’ve been living this year half-hearted. I tremble a bit saying these things out loud for fear of sounding “too radical” to “on fire.” I also wince a bit to think of those who know me…and how far I fall on a daily basis to live this out.
How petty I am. How sinful.
When I gossiped yesterday.
When I intentionally left her out.
When I hollered at an unsuspecting child.
I am living the tension between the already and the not yet. But I’ll be darned if I am quitting. This life, this one I have been given, is going to be spent in a full pursuit of HIM.
“So how will you spend your vapor of a life…Will you try to make your life call attention to itself? Or will you put every ounce of effort into calling attention to the God who alone is worthy of glory?”-Francis Chan
And I want you to join me. I don’t want to play around. I don’t want to talk nice and comforting when it is time to draw a line in the sand. It’s time, women, to be about our Father’s business. It’s time to be on our faces before Him. Today. Right now.
Yes, maybe I’m crazy…it’s quite possible. But don’t you want to be a little crazy with me?
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.” Hebrews 12:1
Talk to me in the comments. What do you think?
With Love From Uganda,